Another Years to be....

I always thought that new year isn't starts at January 1st, but it actually starts at October 24th. Why? Yeah, as usual. It's the most important day of my life, or at least I used to think that way. So, today is new year and whats new?

Every year I always begin my new year with a prayer, which is really feels close to God. Last night? I'm to tired to even doing so. Maybe I feel disconnected with Him lately but who knows? I just want a normal new year, with no celebration, no "happy new year" greets, nothing. I want a simple and quite day on my new year.

Some of you may think that aren't you the guy who always longing for the attention, always in the spotlight, being the center and be THE BITCH? Well yeah definitely, I'm still THE BITCH who is SUPER FAB, SELF CENTERED, STUBBORN, and list goes so long away. That is why, I wondered, why this years My special new year feels nothing but a blank? A TOTAL BLANK. No excitement, plain, lost or maybe the word that could describe it is NUMB.

Yeah, what I want to do today is just doing my work, go home, and sleep. I just feel today is the same with any other day. Nothing special and I'm not expecting something special either. Well maybe I lied a bit, I'm longing and hoping to be greeted "HAPPY FABULOUS NEW YEAR" from a very special someone with initial MZS. That's the only thing that maybe can turn this day around, and if MZS is giving me some surprise that be more than AWESOME. Other than those things? Nah it's feels like a yearly routine for me. Nothing the same but keeps repeating every year.

The least that I would love to say is, Happy New Year to the un-holy trinity (Me, YHOS, MWB).

Love,

Jeremiah Halliwell.