And I'm not going.

Dimulai dengan gue blog-walking di list blog yang ada di list gue. Baca ini dan itu sampe sesuatu menarik (tepatnya menampar gue kali yah).

Gue baca blognya temen gue si R, gue sadar. Permasalahannya banyak banget.
Gue baca blognya temen yang belom pernah gue temuin (secara fisik) dan permasalahannya banyak juga.
Hampir semua blog yang gue baca hari ini isinya cuma curhatan, well gue juga bikin blog biar jadi curhatan gue. Or lebih tepatnya biar jadi curhatan dengan sudut pandang si Jeremiah Halliwell.

Well in each of every problems I've read during my blog-walked. Gue sadar bahwa permasalahan mereka berubah. From studies, to jobs, to love etc. What about myself? Terkadang gue, NO GUE SELALU SADAR bahwa permasalahan gue cenderung itu-itu aja. Gue mencari banyak alasan dengan oh mungkin ini penyebabnya tuh ini atau itu penyebabnya itu (masih ga bisa vulgar juga di internet). Tapi gue juga sadar, kebiasaan gue dalam mencari penyebab dalam permasalahan gue itu kadang ga berguna dan terus dam dalam tititk "oh iya yah".

Ga ada jalan keluar atau langkah-langkah bijak.

Terlambat ga sih kalo bikin resolusi di bulan Feb? Intinya gue mau punya resolusi karena gue baru sadar bahwa hidup gue berjalan tanpa arah or punya tujuan ga punya usaha penggapaian.

Resolusi gue yang terbesar adalah LULUS KULIAH. This point is the most important thing to do. Karena gue sadar bahwa gue stuck disitu-situ aja. So by June I have to finished my thesis even it means that I have to put everything behind me until I finish it. So, I think and WILL stay under the radar. The job that I accepted for end of this month adalah hal terakhir yang akan gue lakukan on the radar.

What's the definition of under the radar? No social activity, either I'm at campus doing my thesis or at home working on it as well. So goodbye chat apps, social media, internet (it always be my addiction), television, social networking, movies (theater or download), social activity, anything else will be added automatically if considered as a thread.

Job finding is my second option. Where to, how much money will I make, the working environment, all that include in it. This period is plan to happen for at least 2 months after I finish my thesis.

Lose some weight, about 30 kilos. The deadline is OCTOBER. So it means that IT WILL START THE MOMENT I POST THIS BLOG.

And finally, get back to where I belong (I mean my social life)  after stayed under the radar so long.

Can I do that? What I've learnt today is that IF I WOULD, THAN I COULD.

So the big Q is, WILL I?

I Will.